Oh man Axe. I know the drill with insurance and getting the repairs done. I've never dealt with this kind of thing, but know people who have. My insurance tried to say I had my own car stolen. Yes, a 44 year old with no criminal record, no speeding tickets, no debt, and no lawsuits, committed a felony to attempt to get $2500 of insurance money. A-holes!! I ended up simply firing them and dealing the costs.
I slept heavy last night, and until 11am. Wow.
2 days ago I made a simple decision with my therapist. I don't know what I'm going to do, where I'm going to go, or how I'm going to get to a good place, but I can stay with the status quo with my financial constraints that keep me broke and unable to work (but provide safety), or take a leap and see what happens. The last 10-20 years haven't worked ou too well with the former, so my decision is I'll have to leap. There's no other choice. I'm not living, I'm simply existing.
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