You're both right. I actually just called my parents to talk to them about it and I feel a lot better. I think I was more anxious about admitting that something is wrong. I talked to my dad who hasn't touched a drink in 24 years and got some insight. I don't drink to black out but I drink at night by myself or out and about so it's...I guess a long process of just building up a tolerance and anticipating this at the end of the day has ruined me.