Originally Posted by
Outonthetiles 
The one theme I see constantly at SR is "I'll try moderation." It doesn't work. It's a seemingly iron clad rule: our addiction won't let us stop with just one. It always leads to more and more and we're back on the crazy train again.
I could not agree more. This is the lie I've allowed myself to believe so many times after a few weeks/months of doing so well staying sober. This time, come hell or high water, I will not ever listen to that voice again. When you cannot handle alcohol, it is an absolute condition. It can't be improved and it doesn't get better. It's all or nothing. I choose all - all that life has to offer and I am turning my back on the nothingness of the emptiness, the anxiety, guilt and depression of alcohol.