I think I'm ready, but where and how do I start?
Binge drinker. Ashamed that it's my go to. It enhances the good and temporarily helps the bad. It's been the funny part of me. People love drunk me. It's changing tho. It's like sitting down, starving at a restaurant and you open the menu to see all your favorite things that make you happy. Then gluttony and remorse hit. That's how I explain it to my husband. He enables it because he is gone so much and I think he feels I deserve it. Him being gone is a huge part of my drinking. Kids are easier. Life is easier. When drinking. I am scared. I'm sad. I need to break up, but I'm still in love. Where do I go from here? AA? I realize I can't do it alone. I've tried. I need options and support. Day 1.