Hi Vinomum,
For me I finally reached the point where the benefits of sobriety FAR outweighed the perceived 'benefits' of drinking. Now I do not feel I am battling with the angel and the devil...there is nothing tempting about alcohol for me now...it has brought me nothing but shame, guilt, regret and anxiety. I would suggest maybe making a list of the negatives of drinking and the positives of sobriety to clarify in your own mind all that you have to gain and all the pain you would be leaving behind.
Wishing you well on your recovery journey x