Sorry for another post so soon!
I've had trouble sleeping this week so I've done TOO MUCH thinking and last night it dawned on me that every time I drank on weekends, I really drank to get that "autopilot" feeling where I could be with myself, a potential mate and friends and really not be myself. For me it was better to let the alcohol take care of things and pick up the pieces the next morning. I'm realizing that's not the true me.
I had a family member say "when you drink you're a different person and I know it's not the real you." For so long I thought that WAS the real me and I was so uncomfortable in my skin otherwise. I think sticking through this journey will allow me to get to know myself again and form real bonds. Although I'm sure it will be lonely for a little bit while I shed all the 'drinking buddies.
