RIDICULOUS!!!
Three and a half years sober and my brother-in-law calls me to invite me to my other brother-in-law's bachelor party.
Suddenly, a slight wave of unease passes over me.
I feel odd.
I think to myself "well, maybe I'll just have ONE with them. Like a symbolic drink"....
Then I recognize what's going on. I see it for what it is. It's fear. Fear that I'm not going to be 'good enough'. 'one of the guys'. "something's wrong with me". "I'm not cool".
Which is of course all rubbish.
And of course I won't have just one.
I will be the designated driver and the lads can have their fun.
I did all my drinking in life already and I've been to my share of drunken bachelor parties.
Just sharing to get that off my chest and to remind us all - it can pop up again in life even after plenty of sobriety. And that's OK. Having those occasional thoughts and feelings doesn't mean you have to drink over it.
Happy Sober Evening to you all.