Thanks guys. 98% of my days since when I vowed to quit again has been sober. Its been great. I have been drunk twice and no positives came of it. I got drunk Saturday at a holiday party off far less than I used to could drink. I blacked out and all. Its been hell ever since. I cant turn around and do a 3 day bender a few weeks later.
Alcohol changed my brain. I am best off without it. I am still for some reason mad at myself that I let it go that far. 98% > 10% but occasionally sabotaging yourself is just as bad as doing it daily.