God does help, whenever we ask. Sometimes he does that by giving us strength and sometimes by giving us a shovel.
You know, in the early days of sobriety a lot of this is about sticking with it through faith in that things WILL get better if we work at it. I got that hope from people ahead of me in the journey on here and also in AA. In meetings I can look into people's eyes and see that they are in earnest. See that their smiles are genuinely reflected in their eyes. And I can feel that great compassion, even if they can sometimes be a straight talking bunch, the love shines through.
Why not give it a go locally, or by listening to some of the Newcomers audios that are available. This is where I get them from (free and no registration required)
https://www.recoveryaudio.org/aa-newcomers
Recovery has allowed me to start looking outwards and look past my own brokenness and see the good that is around me. It's also meant that I've learned to forgive imperfection, both in myself and in others.
Sobriety is not the same thing as Recovery. Staying sober is about taking things out if your life. Recovery is about adding things in. Things that can heal us, not only physically, but emotionally and spiritually as well. My recovery plan centres around the 12-step recovery program of AA, but there are other options. Some people devise their own plans. Dee's thread is a good one to read through while contemplating what you can add in so that sobriety can become comfortable, sustainable, and one day preferable to drinking.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...y-plans-1.html
Thing is, we don't just have our alcoholic drinking that drags us down, but the alcoholic thinking as well. I needed to change my faulty perspective of life before I old find some peace with myself and experience serenity. I'm not saying but was easy, but it was possible, and with the help of the folk here and at AA, and a brilliant sponsor and God's grace I managed it. And I have confidence that if I keep doing what I need to do, and don't pick up that first drink, my life will continue to me manageable and content. Not necessarily happy all the time - that would be impossible, because bad stuff will still happen from time to time. But I'll be able to deal with it. If i ever want to go back to being miserable then I know to stop doing the work and consider drinking again and a faulty solution.
Things will get better, if you're willing to do what is necessary. I don't personally believe that time alone is a cure to this particular malady.
Wishing you all the best for your sobriety and recovery. BB