I'm sorry for your stress and I'm sure you see that the money used for the alcohol could have been better spent. I love that you have a plan to go to the beach or to a movie when you have a craving. But, you need to add to that plan. What if you have a craving at work or in the middle of the night? I think you are feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment, and I am sure that if you remove alcohol from your life, the rest will fall into place. Of course, you will still have debt, but you will have a clear head to plan a budget for yourself, and you will have a clear head to go grocery shopping for less expensive alternatives, if possible. Take the leap of faith!