Hey KK,
I've been in your position many times. I was once 11 months sober and I relapsed...it sucks, I know! A lot of people here know too.
I tried many times to get sober again after my relapse, but always caved around the 3 month mark. Years went by and before I knew it, a decade had passed.
Don't beat yourself up, it happens. What's important is to learn from it and create a plan that will ensure that it doesn't happen again. Whether it's AA, SMART, coming here more often to post, or any other type of recovery program...whatever you think will work for you.
Take care and be good to yourself!
