Brain damage
It's three weeks and I should be more switched on by now. I had to check calendar to make sure it wasn't 2 weeks. I know what you all will say, well, I don't because I'm pretty sure I've permanently broken something in my head. Probably you'd say, it's very early in recovery yet.
But I do seem to be a bit behind my lovely friends here who are getting sober and managing complicated lives. I'm a bit embarrassed. I just smile at meetings and hope no-one wants me to do anything. I am slowly picking up recovery stuff but reeeeally slowly.
I'm drifting through the day like a sheep in a field, not to criticise sheep who seem quite intelligent. It's very hot here for a celt. We're built for winter. I forget what I did a second ago. Thoughts about stuff I should be sorting out seem to bubble up from the mud and disappear back down without a trace.
It's quite nice because I'm not worried about a thing, totally relaxed, like I am a bit druggy. I'd just like to know if I'll ever be of any use? Will my brain repair itself?