Thank you for replying. He doesn't get it. He's just walked back in and to top it all off he's drunk...and I mean drunk drunk. The annoying snivelling slurring makes you want to scream kind of drunk. Me I just want to go to bed but no he wants to hug and tell me how unreasonable I'm being.... he's an addict what do I expect. Seriously how did I get myself into this position do I honestly love him more than I love myself. At times I do wonder why I do it. He seems to think the answer is in that crack pipe or in the bottom of the vodka bottle but I know the answer...I love my kids more than anything so no more chances he goes to recovery and then if he doesn't get clean he doesn't come home it's that simple.