I'm not doing very well
I feel exhausted with all the back and forth going on in my own head. Deciding to stop, caving and drinking, deciding to stop again, drinking again.
I feel like I'm at this dangerous place when the addiction has me and I go into automatic mode just inputting booze into my routine every night and then struggling to get up the following morning.
What can I do? I read some RR stuff, it sounds good for me because of some similarities with CBT which I've also done in the past
Something is not clicking, I'm caving in to cravings and it's just running rampant
I'm really tired of all of this nonsense, drinking all the time is distorting my life, but without it there is emptiness which I don't fill.
I'm on surveillance at my mum and dads, back in my old room, everything scrutinised. I don't feel any progression over last 5 years