Why be surprised? Why do I care?!
Yesterday my AW chose to come and see our son for a bit. She visited for a while got her mother's day arts and crafts and the card I helped him get. She spent a lot of time on her phone and in between saying she had to go to NA for a mother's day dinner, how her she was doing good cleaning houses and so on like everything is normal.
Mothers day comes and she no shows to the cook out at her mom and dad's that she told our little guy she would be at. He was so excited.
She knows I don't believe she is working NA, yet still tells me she going. She just continues to disappoint our son with not following through when she says she will be there.
For what ever reason I still hope for her. I still care. She isn't healthy for any of us. She hasn't committed to a recovery program and has made it clear she isn't going to.
Why the hell does my heart even give a ****?