I feel like the only reason I am finding any empathy is because almost for the first time in my entire life, I followed my intuition and put my own health first. I trusted myself, and I think that's allowed me to process this horrible outcome realistically. I don't feel flooded. Like I personally know what to do for my own health. And I haven't come on here in years and instead of freaking out when her dad emailed me I came here for support. Thank you all for listening and responding.