Originally Posted by
Bekindalways 
^^^^^ Wow Smarie. You really are figuring this out.
Also very NON-codie to know yourself well enough to know you wouldn't do well if he showed up at your door and get yourself elsewhere. I did the same except a bit more extreme . . . . I left the country. It's like an alcoholic in recovery who doesn't even drive by a liquor store.
Exactly! If he came to my door and looked a state, I don't think I am strong enough today to call cops and ignore his knocks. Even when someone puts you through hell there is still a compassion and attachment (at least that's my wiring) that wants to comfort. I may be strong enough to ignore his calls and not make an effort to find him, but not necessarily a knock at the door. Just for today, I'd rather not drive by the liquor store. And that's right I forgot you had left the country! I'm not in a position to go quite that far now but I'll take the 30 or so miles for now
