You've come so far in all of this Free, SO far. IMO you can't get to the next stage of your healing while you are with your abusive husband..... you still have to put far too much energy into that constant vigilance needed to survive in this kind of relationship. You need more time alone to work through the rest, without his influence.....because man free, you're RIGHT THERE, standing at that next doorway of your healing & you want so badly to just keep going.
You've come so far in your self acceptance but now you need that self-love/self-trust part - the part that would directly threaten the balance in your relationship..... which is maybe why you are feeling the anger.
And I'm kind of happy to hear your anger because it might be the fuel you need to carry you through these next stages. Just remember that you can & will have all those things in life & in a partner - but not with THIS partner because he has proven again & again that isn't his primary concern. The longer you are playing *this* game with him, the longer you wait for the right things to come into your life too - you've got to make room for what you want, right?
Don't give up Free - my money's on you.
