May today bring you sunshine. We are alot alike including the emotional abuse and starving, I was eating dog treats, as a child. That is in the past. I know I can take care of myself and my children.
I think this new life will come in stages.
Acceptance that this is reality, check.
Focusing on the children and yourself.
Finding fun times, hobbies, children's connections and friends along the way.
Building trust with others (not x) will be very slow and difficult process. I think I am worth it. I will not trust others to be worth it for a long time. They must be special enough to understand the hurt I've had to deal with. Except, until we've dealt with that hurt we won't be able to let other's in. It's okay to feel those emotions and work through them, even as we sit on a park bench. May you have happier days at the park.