HBG....Yes, I am still up....and, yes, I think it is very normal to feel (false) guilt, at this stage of the game....at least it is a very common reactions that I have heard many people mention....
I think that will fade....You have every right to enjoy your life...and it doesn't say anything about how much you loved her , or not.....
***By the way...does this drinking group have a baseball problem?