Pigeon,
Sorry for hijacking your thread but I just need to comment.
Jaynie, you just expressed exactly what I was feeling was going on with my own addiction. Habits (good or bad) are formed really easy but breaking them is tough. What I know about neurotransmitters, dopamine, and in a very basic way how the brain works this makes perfect sense.
I just was unable to put the pieces together.
Thanks ....
Pigeon. You may have your thread back now