Originally Posted by
ExhaustedPigeon 
Sending good thoughts to you!
Two reasons I haven't tried a meeting. Time (Full time student, mom of three young kids, husband works full time and overtime often) AND anxiety. I know once I finally went I'd probably be okay, but I just can't seem to get myself into that first meeting.
took me every ounce of courage I had to overcome the fear of walking into my 1st meeting. going back got easier.
working the steps didn't get rid of the monkey, it killed the bastaad.
helped me learn about me, my emotions and feelings, and how to change.
after I was sober a while, I realized alcohol wasn't everywhere. it sure seemed like it early on, though.
it was just a matter of me having blinders on. took off the blinders and saw alcohol isn't everywhere.
years of drinking, I was going to have to go through some discomfort physically,mentally, and emotionally IF I wanted to recover.