Hidden, I used to get lost in that cycle too - I would be determined to stop, but then would lose sight of why and feel that I somehow n"deserved" a drink just as much as anyone else. Next thing I know, it's 2 days later and I've lost a couple of days.
I think long-term sobriety requires honesty and hard work. No one wantsnto have this problem, but admitting it is the first step
I'm sure the people in your life would support you!