Thanks everyone
No one in my life knows what i do, friends and family just think i get drunk easily...little do they know ive had 8 beers to their 1 ... I dont want to tell anyone either, i kind of want to just get a grip on this myself...i keep saying ill go x amount of days before a drinking day, i never make it to x amount of days. It is such a habit for me, ive forgotten how to be at events sober, ive developed a belief that every event can be enhanced with drinks...
I'm so easily swayed, and so easily forget why i want to stop. Day 1 is easy, i set great goals on day one, its day 5 that i forget how i felt on day 1. For example - i hadnt planned on drinking this weekend at all, i needed to study, instead a friend asked to come over at the last minute and instead of thinking 'yeah cool, come over' i thought ' yeah cool come over, i need to get a pack of beers and hide it so when we have one beer together i can have 6 more secretly'
