I've just been out for a long walk with my dog, who btw loves that mummy quit drinking! It's not just a walk anymore to get through, it's an adventure, sometimes we are gone for hours. Anyway I find that it's the best way to clear my mind if I'm bothered by something. I've decided that I'm not going to the bar (it's actually a brew house), I have no business in bars, there's nothing there for me anymore. I don't want to go. Could I get through it and have a reasonably good time? Sure. But it's stressing me out and I should listen to myself. My bf might be a bit disappointed, but he'll live. I'm sure he will suffer worse tragedies than me refusing to go to a bar with him. Plus he'll have other people there to hang out with. I figure that if I'm going to tell a lie it might as well be about why I'm not going instead of why I'm not drinking.