Bren,
I get it.
I used to laugh at the non drinkers. I used to jokingly say....sobriety is for people who can't handle their liquor....
Turns out the joke was on me.
I would have never quit if not for all the mental and physical issues i was having.
Until you have a good reason to quit....it is that much harder.
Until a drunk gets sick of being a drunk degenerate, incarcerated, is going insane or whatever....it is harder to get on a sober lifestyle path.
With the education SR offers, the mental burden becomes worse.
I remember waking up and looking into my eyes in the mirror and feeling like such a waste. I felt like a loser and a failure. I knew i would drink again....it was a horrible cycle.
The addiction is a beast unlike anything. The horror eventually turned to discomfort.
Eat when you crave. Fill up. Eat sweets. It tricks the brain. It takes a long long time to get through the mental rewire.
Reading and posting here helps.
Thanks.