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I haven't come here in a long time. Things were getting better for a while and then, a few months ago... Started drinking again and using diet pills... Told myself the same old lie, this time I will manage, and of course, today, desperate to find a solution, feeling powerless. When will I ever learn. When will I ever stop? For a while, I bought these small bottles of vodka (So that I would control my intake of alcohol... Same with the pills by the way...) I ended up with drinking 750ml/day of vodka and spending 440 dollars a week on these pills... Completely broke... Owing money left and right... Exhausted... So here I am again... Looking for help. I am down tonight. Scared and very lonely. Haven't had a drink and a pill for 48 hours now. Not feeling too well either but staying over at my mother. Managed to work both days but staying in bed the rest of the time. Very very depressed, tired, anxious...