Just bought a loaf of whole wheat bread with honey. Not homemade, but better than nothing!
Helen, I think your AV will always want you to say "not now" and not "forever." The possibility of future drinking keeps it going. When I quit, I had no idea of forever. I just wanted a day, then a week and a month and so on. . Forever is indeed a long time. I think you have already made that decision in the back of your mind. Doubtful that you would like to trade places with the Helen of this time last year.
Best wishes for a good weekend all!