Yeah, I'm not seeing it as a relapse/ return to drinking. Drinking that beer in the lobby when I first arrived would have been a decision to drink..... this was a mistake and I got overwhelmed at the moment, but it was only a moment. I just feel the need to be totally open and honest about it. It was a powerful reminder.
Overall though I'm feeling proud of myself. It is a big deal to me that I didn't drink on my vacation..... it was on my mind a lot before I left, I was having a lot of anxiety about whether I would still be able to enjoy myself or if I would spend the whole trip white knuckling it until I cracked. That wasn't the case at all aside from these 2 moments, and frankly, some AV activity is to be expected. It's great that I'll actually be able to remember my whole trip! And that I didn't spend any of it hungover.
The best part was being out on the catamaran and 3 dolphins came up beside us and swam around us for awhile! That was really neat
They were totally checking us out!