Not living in fear anymore!
I just sent a very serious email to my doctor asking for help with my alcoholism. I have never truly been honest with her about it, or asked her for help. Other paths have not worked out. Although, I am hoping with my doctor, counseling and AA, I can overcome this awful thing. I'm tired of living this way.
Yesterday I woke up, started drinking vodka, finished the entire pint, then continued to drink a bottle of wine and like 6 beers. Absolutely ridiculous, sickening and disgusting. I came home, passed out, and now I've been awake all night with panic attacks, and my liver and stomach hurt.
I don't this anymore. I don't want to die.
Is there truly help for me if I am committed?
Do you think I will make it thru this relapse recovery?
I'm taking a mental health day from work today. And I hope to hear back from my doctor asap. But you guys are really keeping me going here. I do apologize for all the posts tonight and over this weekend. I'm just rocking back and forth with pain and anxiety. When will it ever end?