Holding out
6 weeks dry, the latest of many many, many failed Gp's.
I was supposed to drink today. I've been planning a relapse for days, I was making a list earlier of all the wine I was going to buy, and to cap it all off, massive family arguemet today. I even drove on a route pass the liqour store.
I drove pass it, I carried on as usual but I never took that drink. I kept a telling myself boozing would only make things worse- have after all been gong through 1/2 bottle of scotch a day for the last 2 years or so.
Not looking for praise. Because strangely, I feel worrried about how much longer I can sustain this for