I haven't read the entire thread but quite a bit. That being said, I don't understand the point. Whether you call yourself an alcoholic or not, if you drink as much as you do it is harmful to your mind and body. You are also not the best you you can be.
Those are two facts that are indisputable. Now will you get by doing what you do? Maybe.
Will you live longer then you would if you drank as much as you really want to? Probably.
I've tried everything you have or want to try and nothing I did made my life better. Nothing!