Understandable, agri. I couldn't keep alcohol in the house or I'd drink it. I think early in recovery, you just can't take the chance because you always know in the back of your mind (the AV part) that its there, and when you're weak, or tired, or depressed, suddenly the idea pops into your mind to drink. It's not a weakness, it's just the way the addiction manifests itself early on. So long story short, you gotta dump that sh!t out.