argillaceous

Yeah, thanks for asking. I made the mistake of thinking I could have alcohol in the house. We had gin left over from when this guy came to visit about a week ago. I didn't drink it then (thanks to posting on SR at the time) and I foolishly thought I could have it in the house (probably AV talking).

Then last night my chronic pain issues (trigeminal neuralgia so constant jaw/neck/shoulder pain) just got to be too much and I hit the proverbial bottle. It was due to the pain (and no meds to help it) that my drinking skyrocketed in the past few months--I was already headed down that road, but this sped the journey). I now have some meds, but I have wanted to quit drinking for many, many years and this seemed like the right time.

So, takeaway is: no alcohol in the house and get back into learning how to meditate to help with the pain.