Originally Posted by
saoutchik 
Welcome to SR AlwaysConflicted.
Congratulations on your forthcoming marriage and new job. It sounds like you have a lot going for you so it would be a real shame to let substances spoil things.
It is easier to talk freely here because we understand what each other is going through and you can say how you are feeling or refer to things you have done without it having a negative impact on a relationship or career and there is lots of advice on how to overcome the cravings and sense of loss that is felt by most people in early recovery.
Good luck!
yes! im really happy ive reached out. in the comments some people have said things which im just like YES THATS SO CORRECT like how you just brought up the sense of loss you also feel once you've developed a dependancy and relied on that dependancy for so long. It really does feel like a loss because I cannot deny taking xanax for me is the EASIEST solution. not comfortable? take a pill? feeling anxious? take a pill. feeling ANYTHING then take a pill.
the real struggle is recovering from what you've trained your mind to believe in rather than what you are taking!