Here we go again.
Feeling like total crap today. Haven't been on here in a long time. Been drinking heavily again and am most likely going to go through withdrawals again. I am treating my wife like crap, I have a 4 year old. I work from home all day so I just drink from morning until night. I barely drive anymore because I am usually too drunk. I have quit for a couple weeks before and actually felt better than I have in my entire adult life. I started drinking at 14 and I am turning 37 next month. I have convinced myself multiple times after quitting that I can control it. I can for a couple weeks or even months but then I start drinking all the time again. I just bought my second house and moved half way across the country with my family. I have finally convinced myself that I am not capable of drinking and am no longer in denial. Not another drop! Here is to Day 1 folks!