It looks like you've made it to day 2 Eastcoaster! Great job and congratulations. These first few days are the worst, but it will and does get better. I have three young children. During my worst times, I was drinking a beer while making breakfast for them. Thank goodness that was almost 15 months ago. My ability and my desire to just be present with my kids, to interact with them, to tend to the minutiae in their lives, to watch that late night movie, all of those things, has improved dramatically. Trust me, it is worth it. Keep up the fight. Remember that, as difficult as these early days are, you only have to do it this one last and final time. A much, much better world is waiting for you!