Change, glad you found SR. Like mad bird said you need to make a plan. SR. Hanged my life. There is so much to read and learn here. Great people supporting each other, and most importantly you are not alone my friend. We are all here to help. I jumped on here and started posting when ever things got tough.
It's hard for me to explain exactly but so many of those bad feelings will go away with some sober time. Everything just has a way of turning around. How can we help?