Hi Kristoff, if I understand you correctly, you've accumulated some sober time but relapse often as well? If your sobriety is a top priority in your life and you are worried, I think you've answered your own question as to whether or not you should go. Maybe hold off until you get a solid grip on sobriety before you venture out into a situation that is likely to cause you to start over. If you go on this trip, be prepared to be very firm with your use of the word NO.