HI HealthyChoices
An emotional rollercoaster is pretty normal - suicidal ideations are not.
I'm glad you're planning to reach out for help.
There are other crisis lines and things you can reach out to as well:
Salvos Care Line
24 hr counselling- 1300 36 36 22
Lifeline
24 hr counselling. All Issues.
Phone: 13 11 14 (cost of local call from landline)
Lifeline crisis chat
https://www.lifeline.org.au/Find-Hel...es/crisis-chat
Counselling online
https://www.counsellingonline.org.au/
Suicide Call Back Service
Phone: 1300 659 467
Seven days a week, 24/7
https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/