Sorry you are struggling.I have no idea what age you are,but I know several Alcoholics who stopped drinking before the age of 20.
You are not going to feel better after 2 days of sobriety,that is way to soon,unfortunately you have to get through the early days of withdrawl,then things start to improve.
If you go back drinking things will get worse for you.
Please give sobriety another go.
Wishing you well.