I'm in the middle of working my steps, and half the time I also question whether I'm doing anything right. But that's where my sponsor comes in, and has answers to my questions while also cutting through any of my fears or misconceptions.
I had to stop comparing and judging my experience to death, just as I had done with everything else in my life. It sounds like maybe you're having a similar problem, and honestly I think it's because you only have one foot in the water.
By all means, if it's keeping you sober that's a good thing. But if you want to experience the spiritual awakening, I think your best bet is to get a solid sponsor to lead you through the rest of the steps. And whether the spiritual awakening happens or not - at least you would know you gave it a genuine effort. That in itself is worth a lot.
At least that's what I tell myself.
