Hi Sober Peeps,
It was a beautiful day here today, and it's Friday, and on my way to this little shopping center after leaving work, the urge was definitely there. And I started to play with the idea of drinking in my head, and then I stopped myself out loud -- I don't remember what I said, but I spoke to myself -- and abruptly in the car.
That's a big key for me -- recognizing that it is not okay to even engage in that "will I or won't I" mental struggle. Because I can tell myself that thinking about drinking isn't drinking, but I know that for every second I allow my brain to move in that direction and "just" play with the idea of it, I increase the odds that I'm actually going to do it. Got to nip it in the bud as Barney Fife would say.
So, 67(?) days today, I think. I still have that feeling that I'm eventually going to give in, but at least for now I'm just taking the urges as they come and JUST SAYING NO.
Kudos to the rest of you keeping on putting one foot in front of the other.
WE ARE DOING THIS.