An update for all....I check into a detox facility tomorrow. Highly rated, I am excited but also scared ********. However, my resolve has never been stronger, my support from my family and friends is overwhelming.
I plan to use the AVRT method to stay on track once I am clean. It makes so much more sense (to me, at least) than the 12-step method. JMO of course.
The next time I post here I will be clean and sober!! Thanks to all for the support and advice!!! Until then....