Welcome D-Day.
I am glad you found this site.
All the suppressed emotion can really eat us up inside. It's can make us feel big time frustrated. Chronic frustration is not healthy.
Bottling up our feelings is not healthy.
I hear you....I've felt 'bottled up' a lot. It's good to vent however you can.
Writing is a good way to vent.
You can lay it all out in a private message to someone you trust on this site and since you've never met them in person and will likely never do so it's basically safe....to let it all out....everything you are ashamed of...things in your life that hurt you...it needs to come out or it will fester and cause bigger problems...
You can do this...you have more power than you realize....[smile] We're here for you...again, welcome, D-Day.