I know what the right answers are; right now it feels like the universe is pushing a little more each time in incremental steps, trying to see if I will break as each one is added. I have a string of irritations and stresses that are just piling up, and then crash on me like waves. It physicaly hurts, which my AV promises can be instantly cured of course.
Getting the booze out of the house, yes would be a good thing, there is a lot of it so that makes it a big deal and I am imposing it on them as well as myself, now is not the time for that anyway; I need to be in a more rational, less stressed state.
Kel thanks for your post, wierdly that's what I needed to hear right now, I know drinking won't get me anywhere except back where I started with the same problems I had two months ago. I can do this, I think.