Struggling right now...
All I can think about is finishing work and drinking; I know it's the stupidest idea ever but I am just jonesing all the damn time. It's like the logical side of me totally understand's why that can't happen but the animal inside is just clawing at the walls and screaming "F--- it! Just do it! Feel better now.". I know I've just got to ride it out but it's hard and I feel stupid for not taking more precautions.
My wife and daughter still drink (sensibly, safely and legitmately) at home so we still have booze in the house but my AV is just whispering how easy it would be to have some and nobody would know.
I just need to stay in control but it is hard. I really need to find alternative ways of dealing with my work stress, I feel like I am avoiding possible solutions and I don't know why.