You are right Fini and Gottalife. At the time of the accident I had been working at a restaurant. My job was 29 miles away and my co workers were giving me rides to and from. However they were frequent drinkers after work and would also smoke pot on the drive home.It was a unhealthy situation as I was addicted to Marijuana. I seriously did not think of taking a drink in those 84 days. But I also was devastated when the accident happened. Maybe I was over reliant on the meetings for my sobriety.I don't know. But I did open up about what happened with my former sponsor.when the fog starts to lift We plan on putting pen to paper and go through the big book again. I have honestly havent done 4 through 12 in over 10 years. Maybe it is time. My Sponsor has over 18 years of sobriety. Thank you all for your prayers and concern.