Hey there Melissa, you are doing the right thing by joining SR and not drinking further. In one way or another we've all been in your shoes. Key thing is to not drink during this painful time and keep exchanging the drinking with positive activities. Take time to be kind to yourself too...the longer I've had in sobriety the more I've learned to be nice to myself, much like you would to a family member or close friend.
Also, not sure if you have any underlying anxiety or depression but I definitely do and getting that under control has helped tremendously in my efforts to stop drinking and maintain sobriety.
Hang in there!
