Realization
My option for recovery is just do it. I've joined a support group that starts this Thursday. This is a 12 step Christian based program that I think will help me in several ways. I will be working the program and giving it 100%. I will be working the program with people who have similar beliefs and issues.
What it comes down to is I am truly powerless when it comes to alcohol. I have to be strong and practice self-control by saying no to the AV. This along with working the 12 step program is my first steps for recovery.
I appreciate the support that you have given. I'm going to try to come to the 9:00 meeting on here tonight. I have plans, but should be home by then.